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Endless week...

It seems like an endless week and it's really making me realizing how short life is.
I knew of this way before but I never knew how much it would hit me right inside now.
Gone too soon, gone too soon.
Unexpected, and still indigestible.
I think it would take some time for me to actually accept this.

Have been watching you since young but the memory of yours are just these recent years(because you took a really long break in between).
Everything just linked together, somehow.
I heard of the news and disregarded it almost immediately as I sincerely thought that you would do fine(until I heard Paige's interview where she said, if it wasn't really that bad, then the media would not use the word seriously injured, that I found out that I actually missed the word 'serious'.)
You had an accident on the 19th, I knew of it from Noontalk Media on the 20th, where Da Ge was said that he would be conducting a media conference as soon as possible to give an update and sadly, on the 24th I was having lunch with my classmates and got to know that you passed away on the 23rd.
At first I didn't believe her, then I decided to on Instagram and bump! the whole Instagram was filled with the posts about you.
As I scrolled down, everyone is sharing their memories of you, especially Jayley.
And surprisingly, I cried in front of my friends seeing these posts.
I'm surprised too, like, hello?

But anyways, after I returned home, I started scrolling Insta and read all the posts.
Carrie, Xubin, Bonnie, Jayley, Desmond, Rebecca, Zoe Tay.... endless.. I think the whole Mediacorp artistes posted.
After that Ian and Shane were posting with #dailo, it's even more saddening.
But nothing beats Jayley and your love story.
Everything just hit me really hard deep inside and I cried the whole night(and I started wondering then, 你到底是我谁? ).
I've been thinking how much regrets you have left behind, especially Jayley.
Till now, I still can't accept their explanation of you being unable to get out of the situation in time.

After everything and on the last day before your cremation, I felt that, you may not want everyone to be saddened by these. So it's time for me to stop shedding tears but to remember you, as who you are.
Thanks for all the laughters, all your advices, and everything you did for us.
I have so much more to say than these but I feel like it would be endless, like really endless.
So, I hope that you are doing great in Heaven and always be watching after Jayley from above, as a Guardian Angel like 洪俊扬's song. I believe you can be like in the movie too <3!

是否記得初次相遇的情境從氣球風飛的那刻起我的愛以寫滿你的名
是否記得守護天使的遊戲從我抽到你的卡片起不再是一個人的回憶或許未來有快樂也有艱辛我會把你緊抱在懷裡永遠不讓你為愛哭泣
如果天空只剩最後一刻閃爍的星我會讓它為你照亮孤寂讓幸福為你指引總有一天你會看到Guardian Angel 降臨那是我的心一直在守護著你愛是我們唯一的約定

要好好的哟.
你永远是我们的Aloy kor kor.
我不算Pangster, but 你就像我哥一样.
In my next life, 我还是要那么崇拜你! :)

p.s.: Ian actually mentioned 洪俊扬 to sing Guardian Angel again.
p.s.: I quoted the song before Ian does, teehee! :D

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