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Terrified!

Went to eye follow up as usual yesterday. But yesterday was a bit special as we are there to determine whether i should be doing the eye surgery or not. 
But well, i was really excited to get this fix before this. 
After what the doctor had told me i felt that fear is overwhelming me.
GG. they were asking if i want to have my face numb or put myself to sleep. 
Most part of me, I would rather put myself to sleep and wake up with the surgery done. 
The surgery fee is 5-6k, only for face numbness and if were to put myself to sleep, it costs around 8-9k. 
I am still hesitating because if it was for other part of my body, i would have exited the hesitation but this is an eye operation, i can literally sees that hes holding a knife, sewing my skin and everything. 
GG, the thought of it made me felt even more nervous. 
At the time when i was making my appointment, i was like "fck it, just a 15 minutes operation" 
But now that im thinking about it, i cant just fck it LOL!
Hahah. shit~

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