I’m tired of myself. Like extremely tired of myself. I really don’t know what I can do anymore. I really hate myself for being like this. I tried my extreme best to help all of you and I meant it, extreme best. One thing that I did very wrong was putting myself as if the problem was mine, it’s just my nature, my personality, my problem, my incapability of being a perfect friend all of you ever dreamed of. I can guarantee you that I’m not that kind of friend you need in life. I’m the type to pray for you secretly, and when you need help, if I could help, I will do my best to help you. If you need someone to talk to, I will be there for you, if I could do it. But if you want someone who you want to go every cafes in town, every shopping malls just to walk around, I’m sorry I may not be the suitable one. First of all, I’m not financially independent. So I tried my level best not to spend too much. Second of all, I’m really really not a fan to shop around, very highly likely bec...