Jess, only Jess.

Went to eye follow up as usual yesterday. But yesterday was a bit special as we are there to determine whether i should be doing the eye surgery or not.  But well, i was really excited to get this fix before this.  After what the doctor had told me i felt that fear is overwhelming me. GG. they were asking if i want to have my face numb or put myself to sleep.  Most part of me, I would rather put myself to sleep and wake up with the surgery done.  The surgery fee is 5-6k, only for face numbness and if were to put myself to sleep, it costs around 8-9k.  I am still hesitating because if it was for other part of my body, i would have exited the hesitation but this is an eye operation, i can literally sees that hes holding a knife, sewing my skin and everything.  GG, the thought of it made me felt even more nervous.  At the time when i was making my appointment, i was like "fck it, just a 15 minutes operation"  But now that im thinking...

Ohmygod, after exam I woke up everyday around 7am to sort out my stuffs in the room. Distribute what has to be distributed, throw what has to be thrown, keep what has to be kept. Not so much of the visible things, mostly are thrown from the cupboard. But seriously, I really have a lot of things. I donated 2 big plastic bags, threw 4 plastic bags of stuffs and my cupboard is not really vacant! LOL! Those that are left are mostly usable, probably gonna start using them and finish them up and most importantly, stop buying them LOL. Every time I was acting like a tissue beggar but now that i have sorted out my stuffs, i realize that i have way too many packs of tissue paper. I want to faster sort out my things and so that i am able to concentrate in my exam preparation. Have to plan a lot of things. a lot. a lot. a lot. a lot. of things. 我就在家做我的乖乖女好了. hahaha come on, i am cancerian 😏 i can stay at home 24/7 and being alone in my room do my stuffs. Ben's birthday is c...