Jess, only Jess.

Today Kenny brought me to CSC Department, and did something so embarrassing. I told Ben that I find someone quite attractive in CSC and he told Kenny.  So, Kenny brought me to tour CSC and asked me to show him which guy.  Before i had the courage to go, he actually got his name but just to be sure its him. Oh my god, the situation was so embarrassing.  I will never forget the embarrassed me, slap myself.  But i actually had the courage to go inside, its not a bad thing after all HAHA! Found out his name already, and its that name, ohmygodd~    I dont know how am i going to survive till Feb for the time being.  Lets just pray for the best for myself.  I want studyyy, chao!  Good night world 😘

There's a danger in loving somebody too much, And its sad when you know its your heart you cant trust, Theres a reason why people dont stay who they are,  Baby sometimes love just aint enough.

I know each and every one of you all are doing things which are the best to me. I really appreciate your thoughts, words and efforts to keep me happy and still loving me even if i always do stupid things to annoy you guys. But deep down, i really love you all from the bottom of my heart.  I wish you all well and always remember me, i wish that when you think of me, you will laugh instead.  I dont want to be the reason why youre sad, angry, disappointed and so on.  I hope, you all to be really in good shape.  Tho to some of you, i might not be in the same class as you, i miss you all dearly.  Thanks for being there for me.  Really thank you. 

Hahahah!  His 3 years like damn fast! Its a good thing ah, we're not 'sai lou gor' d. Hahaha, wish he could stop complaining and start appreciating life  haha. Just joking 😳 Congrats 💪👍😂 You will......... U know what i mean! HAHAHA!  So dont worry much kays? ;D  Still remember all your weird weird thoughts tho HAHA!  Chill and enjoy your life before entering working lifeeee~  ✌️

Woke up late today, was in super blur mood.  Prepared everything and left my room then the house.  When i was at the gate, i felt that something was not right, it was like something stuck inside the lock. When i took out the key, got to realize that, the key was bent!  And i just bend it back and, "plak" the key broke.  Oh my god, i was like, wow! What just happened?  I have no choice but to wait for my housemate to rescue me. While waiting, i felt that i was going to be late, so i decided to whatsapp my senior of my situation and told him that i would be late. Then i saw, last seen 7.55/later.  In my heart was like, wah not bad, he might reply really fast then. I thought of just saying that i would be late but it sounded like im his superior just notify him that i would be in late. So i told him the reason. Here was how the message went, Ben, i will be late. I broke my gate's key and im waiting for people to rescue me.  And indeed Ben replied really f...

累到快要死掉了。 你还在干嘛？ 睡觉吧！ 他不会怎样的啦～ 问题是，他很weak. 每次这里痛那里痛，像老人家这样。 哈哈哈！ 加油 :)  睡觉了，世界。 晚安！ MelvJ ; Jess

我们背对背拥抱 滥用沉默在咆哮 爱情来不及变老 葬送在烽火的玩笑 我们背对背拥抱 真话兜著圈子乱乱绕 只是想让我知道 只是想让你知道

哈哈哈，刚刚跟我的朋友聊了差不多一个小时。然后就聊到昨天我唱歌的事和感情事。 昨天我一个人去 greenbox唱歌，然后就有这个男的，进来问我要不要点餐然后就跟我聊了几句。 我就很自然的回答他。 可是我朋友说我在那1分钟泼了那男的3次冷水。 我从来都不觉得跟男的会很难聊，可是我这个朋友让我感觉到，男人啊，真难懂，我一点也不了解。 因为对我来说男的会很直接，喜欢就喜欢，不喜欢就不喜欢。 过后就讲到，我喜欢的人。哈哈哈！ 曾经喜欢啦，有时我还是会想他可是我们已经算是陌生人吧？ 我就跟她说了我怎么回答他，怎么对他。 我是很喜欢他，可是，我怕的是，他只是要做朋友，并没有那个意思。and他是真的表达到这样！ 然后跟她讲了很多，她还是说我还是在泼冷水。 她说，我喜欢可是我没有表达。 他跟你聊天的时候，会想很多很多。你回答他的方式，会让他考虑该不该继续跟你聊。 可是当时的我只是希望你已经安全到家啦？ 边说边后悔，哈哈哈！ 为什么当时的我那么笨？ 真是的！ 可能我不会表达我自己，只会用唱歌的方式来表达自己。 我做过最后悔的事，就是，跟你的节奏，没有表达出我在意你的pattern。 忽冷忽热的。 哈哈哈。 我这次真是感觉到自己超级笨超级迟钝。 我每次都get不到男人给我的暗示。 东西发生在别人的身上，我就觉得很明显。我最爱说的“哇老！明显他喜欢你啦！” 可是如果那个人是我的话，我根本就不懂。 可能是因为我会想很多很多。 如果我很在意你，我宁愿你幸福也不要我们连朋友都不能做。 至少我们不是情侣，可是我们还是朋友啊。 我想我的想法是错的。 有多少人可以忍让自己喜欢的人和别人在一起。 我朋友对着我说“我感觉到他的，痛” 可是我真的真的真的没有要拒绝他的意思啊。 她说，我是时候反省了。 她让我领悟到，我不能用跟女孩子的沟通方式在男的身上，不会 work的。 即使你多在乎他，他还是感觉到，你只是对他是普通朋友而已。 说真的，我是有点 hurt咯。 发现的太迟，可是也无能为力啦。 真的真的，如果我有hurt到你们的地方，please不要介意，是我太慢get到你们的意思了。 到现在我还是很，很，很，很，我也不知道怎样...

原来你是我最想留住的幸运，原来我们和爱情曾经靠的那么近。

Recently quite tired, but not today, not knowing the reason why. Hahahaha!  Im not really in pain today, except my specs i guess, for being too tight. Hopefully it will be okay soon, as ester said. Today like finally i felt like ive accomplished what i needed to do.  Plus the good weather, its a bonus!  Had lunch with Jane and yeah, we did talk about stuffs. Soon Rachel gonna leave us, awww :/ Well, im really sorry for my bad chinese ahhh~ really could not help much with FXTW.  And i only know how to do vendor :/  I will pick up as quick as i can. And help you guys out. Today the weather was really good. I really enjoyed! I bought shoes today teehee, one for jogging another 1 for walking HAHA. Excited for tmr, hopefully it will be another happy day . I think its time for me to sleep.   Gd night world!  Jess 

Another wisdom tooth is popping out at the other side. I sure have really high wisdom this year, thats a joke. It hurts! But im lucky that i know what to do, at least at this hour. Im so tired i just want to sleep and think of nothing else, but this pain just cant go away. Have to wake up really early and keep myself really afresh, as tomorrow i will be learning a lot of things.  Hopefully i wont screw up things! 😰 Good night!  Jess

Yes i know, LAST DAY already. Will be taking the exam tomorrow.  Feel so, nervous. I dont know what to feel. Happy?  Nervous?  Dangerous? Somehow my instinct is giving me an alarm to be really prepared for this. It has never been a really good signal afterall. But i have to face it no matter what, just give what ive got in me.  I cant be worried of something that doesnt even exist. No matter how hard it would be, i will give my all. And i would really like to thank my friends that have been supporting me since that day. Dont matter if i really did not make it through this time, i am still grateful for everything you guys have did for me. I wont give up, and i will only do everything i could, and leave it to God. I wish you all the best and may luck be with you.  Much loves and im confident that you guys can do it! 😁 Jess

The lesser the days left to exam, the more nervous we are. Hopefully everything would work fine and God bless. Do our best and just leave the rest till the day comes.  Hopefully i could spend that amount of money happily, for that one purpose; reunion.  We can do this.  Good luck!  💪 Less crap for now.  Continue reading.  Jess

I almost slept when i was reading the judgement of Lord Floyd.  And just right after i finished reading Lady Arden's judgement, i off the lights and decided to sleep. But something popped up in my mind to look for a song's music chord. And i am suddenly so energetic now, i wonder how can the power of music seems like drug to me. Im doomed, things just cant seem to be going into my brain when i read the books, like now. I guess i need to force myself to sleep. I dont know how many times do i have to say this but again, good luck to all my friends, all!  I guess i need the lucks so im wishing everyone good luck, and what they used to say, what goes around comes around? Hahaha, you gotta prove that to me man ;D  My writing sucks, i dont know how, but to just keep writing.  And im writing really slow! (Though ive never written in a fast pace before) BUT its getting slower than before, like, why?! Why now?  This time GG already. Hahaha. Time to sleeeeeeep, sleep!...

Omg, totally dont have the mood to do anything today.  Especially, studies. Huhhhh, i feel so fcked up but ahhhhhhh, i need to do this.  Im so distracted, noooo. In a moment or two, i feel like eating and then the next moment, i think of my brother about buying new car. And then, i think of... So many things i just dont know how to sort it out. Gahh!  But luckily whatever im reading is going into my brain.  I guess i just have to control my mind to stop thinking of other things at this point in time. FOCUS.  Yeah *strong* *strong* *strong*  Pass this paper and move on!  Gooood luckkk peopleee!  Much lovess!* Jess

Read back my secondary school blog and felt so stupid, with all the, i dont know what kind of language and shortforms with all those smiley behind every sentences. What was really stupid was my attitude and walaoeh, was that me, like seriously? HAHAHA! I just cant stop laughing at how childish and stupid i was like REALLY IS THAT REALLY ME? HAHAHA!! Its all memories ah, like described a lot about my friends and maple friends. How i met them and all, awww, so sweet. But mostly i really can't take it to read my blog like HAHAHA, damn fierce. GOSHH! And then i saw a lot of people that are used to really close to me. GG, i mean we used to chat a lot lah, hahaha! AHHH, now i remember who Wai Onn was, he was KKY's friend who went Aussie. They were my maple buddies, we met in Ludi PQ, hahaha! GG ancient times~ Yap Wai Onn and Khaw Keng Yearn, as i can remember lah, IF im not mistaken. I saw few more maple buddies but i cant remember who were they! GG. Kenneth, Jon (Jonn...

YOOOOO! My friends had been asking for my blog, HAHAHA! And i really have no idea what they wanna see there, but HERE I AM FOR YOU! =D Okay lah, i know there's nothing here for you to actually see, but believe me, theres more to comee! Few days ago, i updated my profile picture on FB and my besties actually commented funny comments. THEN, theres so many funny questions coming up to me asking if it's real that I HAVE A SON. HAHAHA! It's too good to be real?! NO?! A comment even said, it looks like daddy! HAHA! It's a good thing there i see, if looked like daddy then he must be really handsome ;) Now now, it's actually just a joke, i dont even have a husband, or worse, I DONT EVEN HAVE A BOYFRIEND! So where comes the kids? They are actually my nephew, Justin and niece, VonVon! But but, this joke really made up my day! HAHA! Was really lazy today, i guess, its BLUE MONDAY!? All day long, there's this song playing in my mind, 背影 by Yoga Lin! =D ...